Desires

Thomas Merton was a 20th century Trappist monk who wrote about spirituality while being transparent about his own struggles and pursuit of God. I am reading through one of his books, An Invitation to the Contemplative Life, as part of my own growth plan for this year. He wrote a passage about his own journey of following God and I couldn't have expressed my own thoughts any more clearly than he has.

I Will Trust You Always

My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. 

And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it. Therefore I will trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone. 

Thomas Merton, Thoughts in Solitude